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Song for Today #4

Here is song no. 4
Wish I were with you
I couldn’t stay
Every direction
Leads me away
Pray for tomorrow
But for today

All I want is to be home

Stand in the mirror
You look the same
Just lookin’ for shelter
From cold and the pain
Someone to cover
Safe from the rain

All I want is to be home

Echoes and silence
Patience and grace
All of these moments
I’ll never replace
No fear of my heart
Absence of faith

All I want is to be home
Ooh

All I want is to be home

People I’ve loved
I have no regrets
Some I remember
Some I forget
Some of them living
Some of them dead

All I want is to be home

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Song for Today #3

I’m back with another song suggestion.  Another artist who gets me in the gut, as well as the brain and the heart.
I don’t need to add anything to these remarkable lyrics.
Take a picture if it helps you sleep
Then expose me as your royal creep
For now I’ve torn it we are not the same
There’s a sun that’s breaking through my window pane
It’s burning up my face yes it’s doing it again

No cover up, no room for hiding
No cover up, my faith is sliding
No cover up, just sharp reminding
Of the fake I was

There are faces that we should not know
There are places we’re not meant to go
If you try to find me you will never win
For behind each layer lies another skin
I’d love to let you near if you find a way in

No cover up, just so much trouble
No cover up, I’m bent in double
No cover up just wreck and rubble
Of the person I was

I am broken and I stand accused
Is there someone who can let me loose
If you find the answer make a careful note
I could use your pardon and a lot of hope
I’m getting to that part at the end of the rope

No cover up, I feel the burning
No cover up, nor time for turning
No cover up I hope I’m learning
Some honesty, some honesty

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How is God asking us to reach out ?

This is the seventh question to think about as our church is called to think and pray about the future.
I’m reading a book by Stuart Murray – Church After Christendom.
It has some really helpful things to say about what healthy churches might look like in a Post Christendom world.
The thing that struck me in relation to the above question is a passage from Paul’s letter to the early church in Ephesus.
Ephesians 4:11&12.

“So Christ himself gave the apostles, the prophets, the evangelists, the pastors and teachers,  to equip his people for works of service, so that the body of Christ may be built up ….. “

The passage does not mention leaders, but gifts.  it is clear that these are ‘leadership’ gifts, but we have identified gifts almost exclusively with officially recognised and often paid leadership roles in the church, requiring years of training.  In my context, it is clear that the vicar/minister is the main pastor.  A Lay Reader would usually be one of the main teachers.  I’m not sure where the other three gifts mentioned here appear. 

There are several passages in the New Testament that talk about the gifts that are needed for a healthy church.   In Christendom, the gifts that were prominent were Pastors and Teachers.  In Post Christendom, we can no longer rely on people being familiar in any way with the Christian story. Gifts that take the faith beyond the bounds of the Christian community become vital.  That means that our very structures need to change to allow this to happen.

“Ephesians 4 focuses not on church leaders, but on a harmonious church.It is the empowered community that engages in works of service.Its multidimensional activities result in the church functioning properly and becoming mature. It is a long way from this to the clerical (i.e. top down – my addition) models in which the laity support gifted clergy who perfom the worls of service. These models exalt or exhaust those designated as leaders and disempower community” Murray p. 189.

When thinking about the ‘How’ questions, like the one I’m thinking about today, it might be easy to draw up a list of actions a local church might take to reach out to their community.  That’s fine, but there might be other ‘how’ questions that precede these very practical ideas – questions that are more fundamental to enabling long term change.

For example:

How can the church be less hierarchical, and promote and encourage a much wider participation, as envisioned by Ephesians 4.

How can churches be better at exploring difference, and resolving conflict, and so be the kind of communities that people want to join ?

How can funds be redistributed so that reaching out becomes a major item of expenditure in a church’s budget ?

…. perhaps you might make up a question …





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What could we hold onto ?

This question is posed to us – a church community in the middle of the coronovirus lockdown.

What might we hold onto from the experience of the last 9 weeks or so ?

I think that is such a big question.  For me the bigger question that it leads to is
How can we learn from both the inherited church, and the emerging ‘new ways of being church’ to enable us to be a church fit for a post Christendom world ?
But for now, I’ll focus on what have I learned from lockdown, especially with regard to worship.
So – for the last two weeks, our ‘zoom church’ has been like this:
Short ‘hellos’ and a prayer
* Brief reading of and introduction to one of the Bible passages for the day. (Usually, but not always the Gospel).
This has been done in a way that is accessible to all ages from pre-schoolers up.  E.G Godly Play.
* Some open questions to think about what might emerge from the introduction.
* Break out groups of 4/5 people.  This for me has been great, because I have ‘met’ people who I have known a little bit before, but got to know them much better through these small zoom groups.
* Come back together for some prayers.
* Close and further chat over coffee etc.
I would like to hold on to this much simpler approach to worship.  I like the way it has given us something to reflect on, rather than a sermon with a possibly complicated train of thought.
It’s very ‘word light’ in the sense that we don’t have a lot of the quite wordy prayers and responses typical of Anglican worship.  This is good for inclusivity.  Some prayers that we all can learn off by heart would be good to give structure and stability.  (But not too many, or prayers that are too long)
I like the way that it invites everyone to contribute.  This makes it more empowering and engaging.

Maybe there are some principles to draw that can be adapted back in a church setting.  In fact this is something we were beginning to experiment with before lockdown, with the time to break up in the middle of the service to respond to the opening introduction in a variety of ways. 
The drawback is that it’s harder to be a bystander, which can be quite threatening/challenging, so there should always be the option of using this time for personal reflection.
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Song for today #2

Song for today: Nahko and Medicine for the People.
We saw Nahko a couple of years ago at the Greenbelt Festival.  They are one of the special bands that I remember for the power of their performance, which was intense and spellbinding.
Other people in the same category of amazing live acts will appear, no doubt in days to come.
This song calls on the wisdom of elders. Oh how we need that wisdom now.
“Directions”
(feat. Joseph)

For the West
For the North
For the East
For the South

Grandfather, I’m calling on you
Need your guidance now
Grandmother, I’m calling on you
Need your guidance now

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In a time of Coronavirus

We walked past the church today
the grass
usually neatly mown
but left to grow for weeks now
is full of colour
blood red poppies
growing where they will
We saw someone with a posh camera
he’s stopped and set it up on a tripod
to capture that moment
before
the grass is cut
and everything looks tidy and ordered once again
We walked past the church today
the door
usually open and inviting
has been closed for weeks now
the seeds of faith
now dispersed
growing where they will
I’m writing this with my posh fountain pen
in the A4 spiral notebook where I jot down ideas
to keep this memory alive
before
the doors open once more
and we go back inside.
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Work Of Love And Grace

Today’s question  – What could be different about church ?
I came across a verse today in psalm 68 – I’m reading the New Revised Standard Version
verse 9:
Rain in abundance, O God, you showered abroad;
you restored your heritage when it languished;
I’m taking God’s heritage here as the Church of God.  And in this country and in so many secular, Post Christendon societies, the Church of God has lost its edge. 
So the hope held out here is that God will restore the Church.
Rain in abundance: this reminds us that this restoration will be a work of God.  We do not send the rain, this is not something that we can control.
You showered abroad: I realise that translations vary enormously, but the word that came to me today through this phrase was another hope – that God’s renewal would be widespread.
In the latter half of the 20th century, there was a widespread renewal in worship, with greater openness to the work of the Holy Spirit.
What I am praying for is a greater openness now to the Holy Spirit breaking down the walls of the church to spread God’s goodness and grace.
There’s a story in the Gospel about the woman who brought a jar of precious perfume to Jesus – she broke it open and poured it over Jesus’ feet and wiped his feet with her hair. And the house was filled with the fragrance of the perfume.
What I pray for is for the world to filled with the gracious works of the Holy Spirit through God’s church.  Of course those works of love and grace are not absent now, but we long for more. 
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Today’s song

I’m going to add a song each day if I can.
Here’s today’s:
A very simple song lyrically and musically, but played and song so wonderfully, and expressing a yearning for life in all its fulness.  More love, more joy, more peace.  Amen to that.
Lyrics:
Well there’s a bright side somewhere,
there’s a bright side somewhere
Ain’t gonna rest now, ’til I find it
There’s a bright side somewhere
There’s more joy …
There’s more love …
There’s more peace …
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What do you cherish ?

I’m assuming that this means – What do we cherish about church ?

Cherish is not an easy word.  We don;t tend to use it in everyday speech.  It’s in the anglican wedding service.  ‘To love and to cherish,’ but I can’t think of other contexts where it is regularly used.

I knew a vicar once who had a major falling out with his congregation.  One of the church members said to me – ‘One of the problems with …. is that he doesn’t cherish us, and he won’t let us cherish him.’  I knew what he meant.  The vicar in question was quite strident in his leadership style, and was someone it was quite hard to get alongside.

David Cassidy had a hit a long long time ago with the song ‘Cherish’.  

Cherish is the word I use to describe
All the feeling that I have
Hiding here for you inside
You don’t know how many times
I wished that I had told you …

As I think about the word cherish, it seems to be to do with relationships above all.  So as far as church goes, I cherish the friendships that we have made there.  The people who have cared for us.  The people who have made themselves vulnerable to us, so allowing us to love and care for them.

Maybe I’ll let Kool and the Gang have the last word today.

Let’s cherish every moment we have been given
The time is passing by …

Cherish the love we have, we should cherish the life we live
Cherish the love, cherish the life, cherish the love.

Kool and the Gang – Cherish

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What led us here ?

Today’s question is – why do we find ourselves at St Paul and St Stephen, Gloucester.

The answer to this goes back at least to 2012.  In March 2012, I had an interview for a job in Gloucester.  I felt excited about the job, but a little daunted.  I didn’t have the inner city experience that one of the other candidates had, so I was not completely confident.

After the interview my wife and I met up for a coffee in town.  We were mulling over how we felt about the job, and about Gloucester.  I was pretty sure that I would take the job if I was offered it, but there was a little bit of doubt at the back of my mind.  I said “what we need is a white van with a sign on the side to come round that corner.”  Literally at that very moment, a white van went by, and the sign on the side said “Evans Preservation!”

We looked at each other and though – what does that mean.  It could be that we would be preserved by not getting the job, or that we would get the job and it would be OK.  Whatever it meant, we felt that God was looking after us.

As it happened, I didn’t get the job. I came a ‘close second.’  (I did get another job at a church in Hertfordshire very soon after, but that’s another story).

Anyway … the whole point of telling this story is to say that although I didn’t get the job in Gloucester, we felt an affinity for the city as we wandered round on the day of my interview.  So when I was coming up to retirement age a few years afterwards, we remembered how much we had felt drawn to the city, and started looking for houses in Gloucester. (How we found the house is also another story).

So here we were, in 2018.  We moved in on May 15th, and straightaway started thinking about church, and where we would worship.  Although not brought up in the Church of England, we had been worshipping in C of E churches for 30+ years, and I had been a vicar for 20+ of those!  So we trawled round the Anglican churches within a mile or so of our house to see what they were like.

Being a city, there were quite a few to choose from – in all we visited 5 plus the cathedral.  None of them actually felt like ‘home’ which made it hard to decide.  There were three within a 20 minute walk of our house, so any of them might have worked from a practical point of view.

On Sunday 5th August, we were at the church closest to home- St Paul and St Stephen. As the one closest to home, we had been there a few times.  Ruth, the vicar was talking about the Gospel reading in John chapter 6.  Jesus had done the miracle with bread and fish and fed a crowd of people, but still they didn’t seem to get him and his mission.  They come looking for him and asking for a sign.  So he said to them ‘What have I just done for you ?  And what MORE do you want ?’

At that moment we both independently thought that this was God speaking to us.  It was as though God was saying – ‘Look at what I have done for you.  You’re looking for a sign to help you decide where to worship. You wanted to live near a city centre, and you’re 15 minutes walk away.  You wanted to live in a Victorian semi, and that’s what you got!  You wanted to be able to walk everywhere and you’ve got a doctor’s surgery just round the corner.  There’s a garage round another corner 2 minutes walk away.  So you can get your health problems seen to, and you can get the car fixed without going more than a couple of hundred yards. What more do you want ?  Why are you looking for a sign ? WHY WOULD I NOT ALSO GIVE YOU A CHURCH ON YOUR DOORSTEP ?!

And logically that was absolutely true.  Going to this church would give us the opportunity to worship right in the heart of our community, which we have done for the last 20+ years.  So we took this as a sign from God that this was where God wanted us.  Looking back on the last two years, we know that it has been the right decision.  That’s not to say it’s always been easy.  Apart from anything esle it’s hard going from being the vicar to being a member of a congregation.  As a vicar, when you move to a new church, everyone knows who you are – you have a ready made community, and you’re immediately a part of that community, as well as being the vicar.

As newly retired people, we came to St Paul and St Stephen almost anonymously.  No one knew us, no one knew all the things we had experienced in life and in church life.  So in some ways it’s been hard.  But that Sunday in August nearly two years ago reminds us that we had a definite call to this parish, and so we continue to seek God day by day as we live and serve in this community.