faith · God

When God’s Hand Is Guiding

One thing that helps me to discern when my life is being shaped by the eternal Potter is the purpose of the pot as it starts to take shape. A pot is made to hold something, and to offer that something to others food or drink, perhaps, or flowers. When God’s hand is guiding the circumstances of my life, the result will be something for others, however small. God the Potter is God the Giver. To trust the process that leads to this result, I am asked to surrender my own limited thoughts and views of what should happen to the larger vision of the holy Potter, who knows what he is making and why.

From the December 10th episode of Margaret Silft’s Advent book: Lighted Windows.

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Without Doubt, He’s A Heretic

Or is he ? Well, I guess some would say so …

I’ve been listening to Peter Rollins’ series on The Church of the Contradiction … fascinating stuff. Part of what he says is to do with different neuroses – the obsessive and the hysteric. I’m not going to try and go into detail on that – listen to the podcast if you want to follow it up. But it has triggered off some connected thoughts – at least I think they’re connected.

Much of what he’s saying is to do with our search for meaning – and the questions it poses.

Let’s say my whole life is consumed by eradicating poverty. It’s my one and only aim in life. Suppose I achieve that aim. (Or it may be that my aim is to become a millionaire, it doesn’t matter too much what it is)

Once I achieve that aim, I have nowhere to go. Life then becomes pointless. If my aim is to get everything in my life sorted, then it may be that in the process, I will lose the things that make me me.

We’re watching a TV series on Netflix called ‘Manifest.’ The premise is all around a group of people who receive ‘callings’ and the tension that arises between them and the rest of the population.

One of the characters is living with the guilt of having been responsible for the death of his younger sister. His life is absolutely defined by his guilt, and the inability to let that guilt go. His wife is also carrying guilt from her part in a car accident that resulted in the death of her best friend.

In a conversation with his wife, he says … regarding the letting go of the guilt

‘I don’t want to let it go, it’s the only thing I have. If I let go, there’s nothing to keep my connection to her.’

His wife answers – ‘Hang on to the guilt then. There’s no shame in that. I carry my guilt all over the place, it’s a part of us, and you can use that part anytime you want. Our pain can become our strength. Live by your truth.’

The obsessive wants everything all neat and tidy. Everything explained, everything sorted.

By contrast, the hysteric is able to live with incompleteness, with contradictions and uncertainties. With things unresolved.

At least, that’s how I understand it. More research needed.

For now …

Creativity, · Songwriting

A Weird Kind Of Enjoyment

The enjoyment that comes from writers block is the knowledge that I’m not going to produce something poor. If I don’t write another song, no one, including myself, can be critical.

There’s nothing to evaluate. Because I need the next song to be good, I stop writing, and there’s a measure of satisfaction in being above criticism.

And … it may be that this understanding, this realisation, this self awareness might in itself change the relationship that I have with writing. ?

A Prayer For This Day · Song for Today · World Affairs

I Pray We Not Fear

I’m posting today lyrics of a song by Bruce Cockburn. It’s from his latest album, ‘O Sun O Moon.’

I’ve been listening to this album non-stop since seeing him perform live at the Greenbelt Festival back in August.

It’s partly lament, but remembering also the good of which we are capable when we are at our best.

Truth, Justice, Mercy and Peace.

Us All

Here we are, faced with choice
Shutters and walls or open embrace
Like it or not, the human race
Is us all

History is what it is
Scars we inflict on each other don’t die
But slowly soak into the DNA
Of us all

Us all

I pray we not fear to love
I pray we be free of judgement and shame
Open the vein, let kindness rain
O’er us all

Us all
Us all

A Prayer For This Day · faith · Political · World Affairs

Caught up in this battle

On the weekend of October 7/8, we saw the beginning of a terrifying situation unfolding in Israel/Palestine.

Caught up in this battle between Hamas extremists and the state of Israel are ordinary Palestinian people.

Since 1948 their freedoms have been eroded. They live with many restrictions on their daily lives, and the state of Israel has gradually taken over their land and demolished their houses.

Somehow, the inequality of the situation must be recognised.

The reality of the injustice must not be overlooked or confused with what is now going on with the war.

Meanwhile, context is everything.

It’s understandable to focus in the immediate aftermath on the families who have lost love ones, and to condemn attacks on civilians of both sides.

But at some point news reporting must give the context of what has been happening in Palestine since 1917 and the favouritism shown to The state of Israel.

Church · faith · Grace · Greenbelt Festival,

An Oaty Bar With Raisins

I was in my Monday night discussion group this week, and we were catching up with Matt and Laura, who had been to the Greenbelt Festival for the first time. They had loved it, and had a particularly wonderful story to tell …

On the Sunday morning of Greenbelt, there’s a communion service which works by people gathering in groups of about 10, and collecting a bag which will have all you need for communion – some juice, bread and a napkin.

Matt and Laura were in a group without a bag – it seems they had all gone.

In a wonderful re-imagining of the feeding of the 5,000, someone in the group volunteered that they had an oaty bar that they were willing to share with the group.

So they passed it round and all took a piece of the oaty bar. To add to the delight of the whole situation, it turned out that the oaty bar had raisins in it, which meant that the wine was covered as well.

Well, how about that !

Activism · Songwriting

Born A Jew In Palestine

I thought I would have have go at writing a carol …

Here it is (I have another in the pipeline possibly)

Born a Jew in Palestine
Wise men see the stars align
Now it’s time for God to show his hand
In this chosen pain-filled land

Born when Herod was the king
He saw plots in everything
Thought to use the strong arm of his power
Didn’t know this was the hour

Jesus was a refugee
Threats of death forced them to flee
Lived under the force of Roman rule
While marching to a different tune

Born a Palestinian Jew
He comes to make all things new
Speaks the truth to all the powers that be
Here to set his people free

A babe was born in Palestine
Bethlehem in ‘89
Works for all this violence to cease
Reaches out the hand of peace

Born again in Palestine
Waiting for another sign
Now for God once more to show his hand
For this chosen, pain-filled land

Sep 7 2023
© jonathan Evans

Feel free to use the words if you credit me as author. I have set it to the tune of ‘Of the Father’s love begotten’ which works pretty well.

faith

It’s Amazing, But It’s True

So, about a week ago, I was thinking about some of the Nomad interviews that I’ve heard over the last few years, and I decided to listen again to one by Rowan Williams. (Becoming Natural N262)

I listened to the first part of it, and then got distracted. I’d just got back from the Greenbelt Festival where we had seen Bruce Cockburn, and I had his new album, ‘O Sun, O Moon’ on repeat. ‘Into the Now’ is currently my favourite track.

Anyway, this morning, I went for a run in Gloucester Park (trying to get back into some cardio exercise) and jumped back into the Rowan Williams interview. Some of what he was saying touched on the nature of God – to be free, not reactive but proactive, and to be the originator of diversity. As he talked about diversity, he used the example of a beam of light entering a prism and breaking up into different colours, the eternal light of God the Word coming throught the prism of creation and breaking up into all these brilliantly diverse realities, which is the world we’re in.

At the exact moment that he used this example, I saw, just to my right a marquee in rainbow colours. This weekend there are Pride celebrations in Gloucester and the park is being set up today for the event tomorrow.



Rowan Williams continued on the theme of diversity, and the various ways that human beings respond to the action of God. He used the example of pride, which we have often been taught is a bad thing – but it depends who you are talking about. It’s fine to say that pride is a bad thing if you are talking about Donald Trump (the example he used) but not so fine if you are talking about a schoolgirl inAfghanistan.

I suddenly had this memory of something similar happening … hearing someone talk about diversity, and seeing people dressed up for Pride celebrations …. then the penny dropped …

I had been listening to this very talk exactly one year ago, on the weekend of the Pride events in Gloucester Park.

It doesn’t surprise me any more, and in fact, I’m always looking out for it … to see God at work in the world around me and to remember that everything is connected.

Grace and peace.




Church · faith

For The People Of God

So, I was in my fortnightly zoom call with a group of friends thinking about triangles and circles.

Specifically, the triangle that is church (most of the time), with the top of the triangle being supported by the rest of the triangle, and the bottom of the triangle feeling the pressure of everything above it and not able to move.

Someone told me this week that there are seven steps in a church building to go up to the ‘far end.’  I had never come across that before, but it’s true that in most churches the ‘holy bit’ is separated from where the congregation are, and is reached by going up steps … and seven is one of those mystical numbers, so who knows ?

Any way, the point is, the leader in a congregation (and it will depend on what kind of church it is, Roman Catholic, Methodist, Free Church etc) is lifted up above the rest.

This symbolises the Holiness and otherness of God, I get that, but it also serves to emphasise the hierarchy in our churches.

Even in the Churches that meet in old Cinemas and Sports Halls there’s often some kind of platform to raise the leaders (and the band !) up above the rest.

Yes, it’s so we can all see the speaker.  

But …..

what if we were 30 people in a circle and not 100 seated in rows looking up at the one person leading.

Who’s the leader when we’re in a circle ?  No-one knows … And can you still see the one speaking ? (Yes)

So what about the circle that might be the church, where we’re all supporting each other and able to see and respond to each other.

It seems to me that the circle gives an opportunity for all sorts of things to happen

Diversity of contribution -share gifts we didn’t know we had
Acknowledge the power dynamics (which will still be there) rather than them being obvious but never addressed
Be a powerful political vision of a different kind of soceity
And in the context of Holy Communion/Eucharist/Mass/Lord’s Supper – have the potential to be the kind of crazy table where everyone gets fed.

Until next time

Grace and Peace

Bible · faith · Following Jesus

The Same Territory As Before

Matthew 19:23-30

Then Jesus said to his disciples, ‘Truly I tell you, it will be hard for a rich person to enter the kingdom of heaven. Again I tell you, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for someone who is rich to enter the kingdom of God.’ When the disciples heard this, they were greatly astounded and said, ‘Then who can be saved?’ But Jesus looked at them and said, ‘For mortals it is impossible, but for God all things are possible.’

This was the day when the Catholic Church remembered Mary Queen. One of Mary’s gifts to us is her example of pondering. We are encouraged to ponder today.

Once more we see Jesus challenging those with wealth and privilege. Until I/we/they see what it means to truly live out solidarity with the poor, I/we/they cannot enter the kingdom of heaven.

In the next few verses, Jesus will say that the first shall be last and the last shall be first.

It is the least and the lost and the last who are first in the kingdom of heaven.

The beginning of Luke’s Gospel introduces us to a young girl called Mary who is told that she will have a son and will name him Jesus …. (Luke 1:30)

She responds with a song of praise that includes the words … ‘He has cast down the mighty from their thrones and has lifted up the lowly’

Lord – Help us who have relative wealth and privilege to see more clearly and to follow more nearly the way of Jesus.